This is it! I think I’ve been in denial these last 3 months since I got my invitation kit in the mail...but this is actually going to happen. I’ve been preparing for this moment for 4 years and now that its a day away I’m kind of speechless and can't label my emotions, which is odd even for me. I’m enjoying the luxury of sitting in Panera and watching the snow fall because I know that in 2 days the internet will be just that a luxury. My world is about to change and I have no clue or control of what’s about to happen. My life will be full of new experiences; teaching middle school kids, learning new languages, no running water and living in my 1st place (even if it is a hut). I’ve made the joke “Is Zambia/Africa ready for me” but its more like am I ready for Zambia? I have no idea if I am but I’m excited to find out.
I am mostly excited. My anxiety about bike riding and plane rides is overridden by my visions of reading to kids under trees, developing my amazing letter writing skills, and teaching 5th-9th graders science. I’m going into this experience with few expectations and with an open mind, an open heart and open eyes. Its funny because everyone is telling me that this will be a life changing experience and no doubt it will be but the whole process thus far has been insightful. I’ve learned that when you’ve tired and tried and feel like giving up…don’t. I’ve learned that packing is a talent not to be taken lightly and that books take up more space then you would think. I’ve also learned that time really is short so make the most of what you have.
So I’ve packed a thousand times and there are still things I HAVE to fit into my suitcases. I eaten at all the places Ill soon crave and I’ve spent time with the people who matter the most. Of course I didn’t get to say goodbye to everyone so be expecting letters. I’ve pondered the mysteries of life and I’m sure for the next 27 months Ill continue to do so. The most important lesson I’ve learned so far is to “Let go and Let God” and as cheesy as it sounds it’s the truth. So as I sleep in my bed for the last time in a very very long time, that is my goal of the night to “Let go and Let God” and not think too much about the journey ahead….all good in theory!
